Me Vs. Myself

My idea for this blog is to write down, the ups and down of a journey toward my goal weight of 150.  Is that still fat? who knows, I don't, but since a while back that number came into my head. Don't even know what size that is... I am currently at 221 and size 20. An XL... and I think to my self I want to get rid of that X... among other areas of my life as well. but that's another blog.

I started in February of 2013 motivated by a persons visit to get myself in shape, and I came across my first zumba class, that was very energetic, and amazing.  It was like clubbing.  Who doesn't like that?? well, I was 244 back then.  To my surprise, I lost about 17 pounds. But because I didn't know what to eat at times, I always felt that I didn't eat enough, so I would end up feeling hungry.

That was not helpful, so then I even stopped going to the studio, among other things I was crushing on some person that I thought would be a great motivational piece in my journey, but it wasn't... so in the end instead of making me happy, I made myself unhappy and for some reason I lost my motivation to dance, to want to get in a better shape.

I took a trip to see family and that was a haze, I can not recall anything memorable other than the fact that I met cute baby boy, and his mother was adorable too.  It was the brake I needed but for some reason I couldn't enjoy it.... It wasn't until months later that I realized that my sugar was high.  Yes I am diabetic, so all my crazy eating over the past summer had caugh up with me.

I got it under control and once again started going to the diabetic classes and at one session they had a woman come in and talk about food and how it affect us, and offered to get people nutritional classes.  I had one when I was diagnosed 5 years ago, but I thought maybe there is some new formula they might have for me to try.

It would be a few weeks before I would hear from them, but eventually I was given an appointment for april 17th, 2015, and that is a day I will remember for a long time.  It was a magical moment.  Robin, the nutritionist gave me some great advice, and I could not believe she was telling me that if I followed the guidelines I would not only control my diabetes but also drop some pounds.  Protein was to be my best friend, and carbs were something I would watch over...

It was what I needed.  I didn't really understand the numbers, and what was 45 grams of carbs, I thought it was 35! so the first few days were killing me.  I had headaches, stomach aches, even my sugar went as low as 85!!


 and for one second or too, I thought I was cured!! ha! I can dream right? and so, I was determined to eat less sugary of anything... but with all my aches and pain... I thought it was going to be a high road up ahead.

I had misplaced the paper where everything was written down, so when I found it, I realized my mistake and started counting carbs again to make sure I was near the allowed amount so that I could feel better.


And so far so good, I had a follow up on the 27th of may, and I had lost 3 pounds!! This time, she was making me see that the less carbs, the better and faster my fat would melt away, at a nice pace.. and so another goal came to be, where I would try my hand at less carbs, than the allowed, and I have managed to cut down to 1 slice of bread plus egg, plus oatmeal. and when I am working around the house it is nice and enough, but when I do nothing around, I feel I am missing something, so I always look for something to do around the house... decluttering my closet is my favorite thing to do, so I can donate to my local store... everybody wins!!!